| Current mood: |  apathetic |
Layed Out
One of annoying things about taking anti-depressents is the half-life is so long, it's impossible to any scientific experiments on yourself (hold all variables constant except for one) and still continue living your life. To test all the things I'm curious about with Wellbutrin I would have to be my life on hold for about four months.
Having said that, I think I nuked myself today by taking a little to much. I've noticed that it's hard for me to wake up and get started with the day. But after I'm up and out, and especially after I take my afternoon dose, I'm happy and interactive well with people ... it feels great. I'm up to taking 400mg a day (200mg AM and PM), although I haven't noticed much improvement from 300mg. So I tried taking 300mg around 9am, which is pretty early for me these days. I was hoping that extra 100mg will boost me out of bed and spash out into the sunny day ( for about 7 minutes, and then work at the office for 12 hours).
I think it actually had the opposite effect. After taking it I immediately went back to sleep. When I next woke up it was after 11am, and I was supremely unmotivated. I checked some work and personal email and the dread of facing people at the office was building up. After spending about 30 minutes in the shower (which usually helps get me motivated) I realized there was no way I was making it out of the house today. The embarassment of emailing work to say I was staying at home all day for no good reason was eclipsed by the reality that the best outcome for this day would be just rest up try again tomorrow.
I was downstairs at this point and I crawled under the plaid comforter. I was on the bean bag thingy, and wrapping in warm things felt so, so good. I slept for about four more hours, it's almost 5pm. Now I'm ready to eat something but the food is waaaaayyyy over there in the refrigerator......
So I think this is due to the extra wellbutrin but it's hard to say. Other activities this weekend included hacking for about 16 hours on Saturday, staying up till 4am at Urban Wasteland that night, sleeping really late on Sunday and then a totally unplanned (and anomalous) make-out session with this girl that is adorable but I don't want to be her boyfriend, at my place, until night time. Then this morning I was afraid TR got hacked, but it turned out to be just some corrupt mysql tables. Any of those things could have been contributing factors and I think they all probably were. I'm hoping if I hit the gym tonight and go down to the prescribed dose tomorrow AM that I'll at least be functional again.
I really need something to get me up and happy in the morning. Could be as simple as coffee....don't really know
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